What a week! I went from despair to excitement in the space of a few hours. The anticipated change? ...... yes, it happened. And while I'm not over the moon and while I'm feeling sad - I realise that this is the start of something good.

My lovely partner has just scored his dream job - it's something he's wanted to do for 30 years - and now it's his. And it's away from home - a looong way away. My sadness is for me - I'm going to miss him so much. You see, I've decided to not share his dream job ..... for now. Never say "never", but at this stage I cannot see myself making those sorts of changes. It would involve putting this life that I know and love on hold - indefinitely - moving to parts unknown and facing challenges unknown.

I'm not that adventureous - and that does not make me a lesser person - right? I like what I have and how I have it. So to that end we have given each other 6 months to try before you buy, and then we will look at the situation all over again and decide.

Now - what's in this for me? A few lessons I'd say. Lessons in patience, trust and getting to know "me". Patience: that things will work out as they are supposed to and not to try and manipulate outcomes. Trust: that things will work out as they should, trust in myself that I can cope with the upcoming months of aloneness, trust that my partner will get what he needs from this experience. Getting to know "me": through decluttering, silences, quality time alone, meditation and exercise.

At the moment it all feels surreal. He's still here and we're doing all the things we always do on the weekend. So far nothing has changed. But it will - very soon. And I have to change too. I have to change my mindset and my reactions.

But some things will not change. We love each other - no change. We want to be with each other - no change. We both respect our decisions and reasons for doing what we're doing, even though we wish we were on the same page :)

Life is changing, life is never still, life is what you make it - life is good.